The Christian Left part 2
Regulars may remember that I started a series on how I ended up as a member of that slightly obscure group, the Christian Left. Apologies for a lack of an update, events dear readers, events! Anyway, here I am, carrying on. If you are new to this then you may wish to read my first post on this subject before this one where I essentially said that I was a dualist.
So how does this lead to God? While dualism suggests that there is something that doesn't fit with the material world as we understand it I totally accept that this does not lead to the concept of there being a God. Having A does not necessarily lead to B. Hence I have to fully accept that this is the most tenuous area of my thinking and is a clear demonstration of the fact that all religious belief is based on faith. If anyone sits down and tries to convince you of the existence of God through science or logic then they are fooling themselves and, maybe without realising it, fooling themselves as well. But I digress.
Part of it has to be that I can't help myself. No matter how I think about it I keep coming back to the idea of a God. Recent reports suggest that we may have evolved this way, that there is an evolutionary advantage to believing in God, even if there is no God. It's possible that that is true, but if it is true it's hardly surprising that some of us end up believing is it? The big bang doesn't disprove the existence of God (in fact if anything the idea of the universe having a beginning and an end suggests the idea of a deity even more strongly) and neither does evolution, both simply debunk creationism (and I am no creationist by the way). Every time at the back of my mind is always this idea of God.
Part of it, as I suggested before is almost certainly cultural. We are at our most suggestible when we are young, and growing up with a Christian mum and a Theist dad was never the best environment to turn out an atheist!
Part of it must be that I have found a lot of peace and confidence in prayer. Of course that is no proof of the existence of God (and no, I don't believe that there has been any divine intervention in my life either a result of prayer or any other reason, we'll come onto the whole "why pray" thing in another post), but there can be no doubt that the happiness I have found there has reinforced my belief.
All in all taking a step back from things and looking at me from the outside it would be very easy to see a fool that is fooling himself. And maybe you are right, maybe I am, but that thought still doesn't switch off that bit at the back of my mind that still believes.
So over all though it must boil down to faith. Logic suggests that I could be fooling myself (logic if anything leaves to agnosticism), and I also know that dualism doesn't lead to theism, although the two do sit very comfortably together in that dualism suggests that reality stretches beyond the material universe as we understand it.
Next up, why Christianity and not some other religion? Not sure when, but it is on it's way!